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Monday, February 20, 2012

20 to 20--Day 1.

On the first day of my 20 to 20, I want to take the time and thank my parents for giving me life and raising me to be the person I am today.  Every part of the way I have turned out is thanks to them and I honestly love every part of it.  Including the fact that I am a hopeless romantic who wears her heart on her sleeve like my dad and the stubborn, hot-tempered side of me that I can thank my mom for. 
Today I reflect on this because of the news I received last night.  As I was perusing Facebook, I kept seeing statuses such as "Thoughts and prayers going out to _______'s family tonight. Stay strong!" And other statuses of the like.  So I texted a few people and got the "whole" scoop, which was as much as you can get from word of mouth. 
As it turns out, an acquaintance of mine from high school tried to kill himself yesterday.  In all honesty, I have no idea what was going through his head during that time.  He does not have a rough life--and I know this because I know their family.  All I know is he had gotten into some trouble with the law (nothing as bad as killing another person or anything) and figured his life and career stood no chance anymore (he was also going for law enforcement) so he did what he thought was the necessary step.  He is now in the Fargo hospital and in a coma.  From what I heard this morning he had no brain activity so the family decided it was time to let go. 
I will honestly never know what goes through people's minds when they decide to go to such a low level that the only way to get out is from leaving this world.  To me it is the most selfish thing anyone could ever do.  Putting your family through something so unfathomable to me is, I don't even know.  I really am at a loss for words.  His girlfriend is in the military and is in Georgia right now but was flying back to be with him and the family.  This past week his mom was vacationing (luckily in the States) and flew back last night early so she could be with her son. Her 21 year old son. Twenty-one. That's how old this boy was.
Shawn, I have talked to you as many times as I have fingers on my right hand but I know there are others out there who love you so, so much and have no closure as to the reasoning you would choose to do this.  You were living such a great, fun-filled life with amazing potential ahead of you. I hope you can look down on your friends and family with happiness in your heart.  I hope you enjoy your new life--I know you'll be reunited with your dad in Heaven and I hope that gives you all the joy in the world. <3
I know this is such a somber post for a Monday morning, but there was really nothing else I could say. I want my parents to know I am so grateful for life and I love them so much. Thank you so much Mom and Dad!

With love,

1 comment:

Christie said...

So sad....I can't understand that decision and I think it's selfish just like you. It shows you that things go through peoples heads that even their closest friends and family have no clue about.